Today was a day that really counted.
Not because I have been particularly effective, has made a super effort or achieved a lot.
My reality today was NOT like that. Very, very far from it.
Today was the kind of day where I could not see clearly. For inexplicable reasons I walked around in my own fog and swamp of procrastination all morning. The start of this day felt more like being a spectator to my own life and helplessly watching it slip by without any meaning. I was stuck in a feeling of unclarity, physically weakness and overwhelming uselessness. And as the hours passed, it only got worse.
It was past lunch before I realized how lost I actually was. I still felt discouraged, but now I was at least awake.
And then I finally took a miniature step in OUT of the fog.
HERE, right here was one of those moments that really counts; THE FIRST TINY STEP!
When I had taken that step my mind was a bit clearer. And I was able to rise enough above my own swamp and find space in my mind to ask:
What ingredient do I lack in myself to be able to create anything today and how would I really like to feel? And, what can provide this feeling?
Now I had taken not just one, but several small steps. And my direction had already changed. 3 steps in a new direction is a change of direction, although it is only 3 very small steps!
Everybody has days that are foggy or hard or downright unbearable. EVERYBODY. WITHOUT. EXEPTION.
And those days are really important. For this is where we could get lost if we just let things slide. And sometimes we may get lost for days, or months, or even years. But it is also on those days we have the opportunity to carve into our minds and lives which direction we sincerely want to take. To change direction requires just that; a conscious direction-change. Ever so gently, step by step. But with increased focus on where the heart longs to go.
Want to know what my first tiny step was? It was a really easy one (the first step should be small and easy, otherwise you won´t do it; you are after all in the middle of a swamp…). I watched this wonderful video with two love-beaming power ladies, and felt embraced, seen and inspired.
With wishes for loving but firm leadership of the parts of us that sometimes can be lost in swamps.
Love from Lise.